Gym membership

I have been doing awful dieting. I can't stand that I find myself mindlessly eating. I am not alone atleast. My FB group has several people strugglin in it. So I'm determined to stay positive and not to let things keep me down. I've talked to my husband and I really want to get a gym membership. Some day next week I should have it.

I can't wait!

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I found a new hobby and I love it! I have gotten so many things so far spending under $25. The one that cost me the most is a Carbine Men's Ring for $10. Most things cost under 2$ or even FREE!

Including ebooks 

This isn't even half of what I've gotten.

All I have to do is leave a review on Amazon.

How cool is that?!

Time to homeschool

After years of debating on whether I should or shouldn't I've overcome my fears (being a SAHM now helps) and am ready to take the steps to home school my little fireball. This has been a long time coming. He's missed countless days of school. We couldn't leave the house and have been a one person working family in fear that the school would call and we would have to get him.

I know one person (a dear friend) expressed her concerns i shouldnt have to homeschool because the public school fail. I don't think they failed. We have made so many trips there we are regulars. We have talked to councilors, teachers, social workers, principals. He has an IEP.  He has outside councilors, therapist, and psychologist. We've tried medicine, changed his meds, added meds, and increased  his dose. I really feel I've tried everything.

I had one person tell me it's not for me. At first I was really sensitive. I feel people think I'm not good enough. I know I am. I've always been a teacher to my kids.

In thinking about this decision I took into account that one on one he is awesome. He loves to learn new things. By himself there is no problem. When he's around others you never know what sets him off.

We will see though.

Happy November 1st

After I was doing so well today marks a week I can't seem to find my self on track. If all goes well I hope I can get a gym membership. Somethings got to give. My 10 year anniversary is in August I would like to renew my vows. Wish me luck.

In a brighter note thanks to halloween I got plenty of exercise. As I'm sure most of us did! However, I got a arm work out too when my son clogged my parents toilet! I worked it for half an hour screaming everytime poop water hit my arms and hands "this is sooo nasty."  I never did get it unclogged.

My boys. I can say that next year no mask. They took them off while trick or treating.

I'm excited to say that I just started becoming a product tester! I get my first shipment November 3rd! I get to keep the product for a discounted price and all I have to do is review it! How great is that!

I'm sorry I jump from subject to subject without a smoother transition. I have a hard time writing. My thought process just goes cold. 

Well Happy November 1st!

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After 10 months without aunt flo, looks to me she's going to see her wrath. I hope this is the reason for my depression and not falling off my wagon. I've been waiting to be able to exercise after my reduction. Now I feel I'm able but I lack the desire to do so. I'm not super depressed thanks to anti depressants but it's enough to have me lack the desire to do anything. I have house cleaning to do. It's a never ending job that as soon as I do the work it's messy the next second. Endless cycle.

My son came home yesterday. They changed his meds. There is definitely a difference in his personality. He seems more quiet. I'm not sure if I like that. I just hope it will be the last time he needs his meds changed for awhile. I hope he doesn't need to express his anger physically especially in school.

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Behavior issues

My youngest son is diagnosed with ADHD and ODD. Unfortunately due to his age there isn't much else they can diagnose him with. This all started when he was in pre-k. We were reluctant to give him medication and ended up pulling him from school. He went through kindergarten and first grade, he was suspended and in trouble several times a week. I felt horrible as a mom. Everything I tried to do to help him didn't work. He was constantly abusing teachers and students for reasoning not even he knows. He has gotten better with the help of great teachers, therapist, and an iep.

So Monday we got a call early morning from the school he was in the principals office once again. That was resolved and the rest of the school day was good. That is until he was on the bus. There he kicked the window, hit his head against it. Hurt other kids and his brothers. The bus driver told me I would be paying for damages if he broke something.

When he came in he continued with the irratic behavior trying to break the door, dumping dresser drawers out, and trying to break things. I got him in to a facility that night. (This would be his second stay in a year, he's 7) The behavior hadn't changed and carried through evaluation.

Ofcourse he is alittle hyper but is doing well during his stay. My sour patch kid is exactly like the commercial. Sour then sweet.  He is so incredibly smart and throughout his difficulty teachers love him.

As a mom I feel bad. I know I do everything I can for him, but I wish I knew what was causing this.

Time will be his best savior. Time to mature. Time to learn self control. I love my baby and I will do anything to make sure he's able to succeed as an adult.

Struggling

Having a major depression disorder really holds me back at times. I work hard to keep my head on straight, but it does effect my day. As much as I want to be motivated, I find myself on the couch.  I guess I should be honest and say it's been days since I've washed my hair. My clothes are dirty.  Where I use to care about my appearance I just don't get enjoyment anymore. I want to lose weight for confidence. I work on self love. I still dread seeing myself in any way. I avoid mirrors, pictured, and getting naked.  I drag to take care of the house. (Though i do get it done)..And where I once thrived in being an awesome mommy....I feel run down. Not respected. And frustrated.  (Course there's other reasons for this)

 I let food take over and I ate mindlessly. Maybe I was just bored. I'm not proud of that. I know if I get back on track tomorrow all is well.  I also know to keep the negative thoughts at bay, to keep moving forward. I'll figure things out.