Weigh in

Amazing just changing meds can do.

3rd video

Weight loss: http://youtu.be/w_Jk3rYAIAU

Turns out Im some kind of crazy

Markings are pretty high on PTSD. Then schizophrenia but not the loony one but more im quirky. Psychastheria the ocds and phobias fall in that category. Things are not easy it takes so much medicine to keep me normal....or zombie.  Im always tired.  I zone out. I hope when we go visit friends  i can find some kind of normal. I wont drink though.
I love the ability that because of the meds i control food instead of food controling me. I've lost 40lb over the year i cant wait to get to the 50lb mark so i can do a before and after.  Im not really satisfied because this is my old higest weight.  About 7 years ago i lost 50lbs plateauing me at 200lbs  for 3 years.....and I've  been struggling ever since.  Up and down never above 250....till last year.  Thats when i got to my highest 285.  Now im 5'2......fitting in seats were hard. I felt like the marshmallow man from Ghost Busters  .  i wore the same clothes over and over i became severely depressed some days avoiding the shower. Avoding the mirror.  Ignoring  what i look like. I felt hopeless. Ive heard of yo-yo dieters but never thought  i would be in that category. Atkins, cabage soup diet, weight watchers, HGC diet, diet pills....ect. I'm just not one to stick to it but i figured out the problem. Its a medical.

Im trying to help others lose weight with me on my journey.  I try to be positive. (Facebook group: Losing weight and Overcoming ) I have a few participants that keep up, but people get discouraged when they dont lose.  I weigh on fridays.
I ask people to mainly pay attention month to month change making goals body picture and find something positive about yourself. ...

The purpose of this blog is to overcome personal struggles while losing weight. Learning to love yourself as yourself before you get to goal weight bc if you dont love yourself,  how do you think you'll  feel smaller?

Starting fresh with the weekly weigh ins

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40 lbs diffrence

My start weight 285.  I was insecure, depressed,  lonely.  Enough was enough. I couldn't fit in chairs. Or put on shoes. I have out grown my clothes.   I hit a state of depression that i needed help from and thats what i did. I started getting help.  Weight came off slow the first month. Then fast the next few months the more active i became. All was grand till i broke my my foot and sprained my ankle. ...and the depression hit again....along with the weight gain. This was diffrent than normal. I didnt let it get me down. Even though my weight went back up 15lbs I started getting myself back to losing. Granted on the inside im broken.

This is the beginning

The turning point you might say. I was in the 270 here my highest being 285. But no i wasnt happy. Thankfully things have changed since then. Soon will be a before and after. At different milestones.