Going to have a breast Reduction

I know its been awhile. Alots happened and i will update here and there. But first. I was approved for a breast Reduction!  September 9th is post op and September 25th is the big day. I have been doing lots ove research on youtube watching videos of people who had the surgery and watching the actual surgery. I know afterwards i wont be able to sleep on my stomach and since i dont have a recliner i will need extra pillows so im laying in an inclined position. I have been planning meals and writing them down so in a few days i will shop and prepare/freeze meals. Lets seeee..... i need to make sure to have shirts that are button up easy accessable. I hope I'm not missing anything.

Getting back my life

So much has change since being off my anti psycotics. Its like getting my life back. How do people function on them. I feel more like myself I dont know when things will change but for now i am enjoying doing things like sitting out with my chickens. Hiking to our creek and swimming at the lake...

I can continue my quest to help others in something....i was trying to speak out for mental illness but I forgot how or where I was going with it.

For now i am posting a weight loss related entry:

I have been so confident in my eating but today included 2 hot dogs and some chips. Im confident i didnt over induldge too much between lunch and dinner but it was mind over matter and my mind won. Im confident i will be back on track tomorrow especially since im food journaling.

Fresh start

The anti psycotics meds have been out of my system a while and im feeling alot better. Im not a zombie like a was and im on the 2nd day to the goal to lose more than half my weight.

Over the months of being on the meds all I did was gain weight very quickly. I am very motivated to start losing it. I have a group on facebook:  Losing weight and Overcoming

I want to inspire people

I want people to love them self as they are

I want to motivate people

I am a real person not like the other groups. People really struggle. I want people to ask questions and participate.

Please dont be afraid to join.

Been a while

My weight is up....290+  my meds are up.....im not sure what to write about. I feel detached from the world. I sleep more. I eat more. I complain more.
But lets talk about life. I raise chicken and 2 ducks. I have a cat and dog that run through the house and play with each other. ...oh i aquired a huge angora bunny. Its really fluffy. Its like a zoo here lol.
Ive started painting again paint by numbers.....i hate it. But im going to finish it even if it takes a month.
Thats all i got

Emotional pain

I dont understand why I hurt so bad emotionally. My heart hurts. Maybe its cause I absolutely need the Effexor.
No one understands. And here i am in tears again. My husbands afraid to leave me with the kids. I cant clean my body hurts, I'm gaining weight as I write. I cant control myself. I did finally get the medication I need but now I have to wait for it to work. I feel hopeless and alone. I don't want to do anything  I just sleep I want so bad to be positive and alive.

Hate

When you hate yourself so much for no reason.  You don't know why. No one else knows, nor do they know why,  nor can they fix it. Then you feel alone.

Weigh in

Amazing just changing meds can do.